Mood Swings

This week has been kinda hard on me.  I have gone from sad, lonely and homesick, to ridiculously happy, to frustrated, to... neutral - all in a matter of 4 or 5 days.  Its been rough.  

I know some of ya'll are thinking, "How could you possibly be sad... in PARIS?!"  Sorry guys... but Paris is not a magical fairy land all the time.  Not to mention that if you're reading this, it probably means that YOU are not HERE - thus the sadness and homesickness.

I think another part of the problem is that I've been living too much in the future.  Thinking about the time when I'm NOT going to be here.  Worry about getting a real job, where I'm going to live - all that stuff that the planner in me just wants settled.  Like now.  I read a good quote the other day - 

The happy man does not look back.  He doesn't look ahead.  He lives in the present.

Now I'm not sure if I COMPLETELY agree with that - but in my present mood and mental state, I think that's good advice.  So I'm trying to be completely here.  

But while I was trying to figure that out, I spent a lot of time in Shakespeare & Co. and St. Etienne du Mont trying to digest this problem and some of my doubts.  

The happy part of my week has been spent with Sadie and Dana - drinking overpriced hot chocolate (that was TOTALLY worth it) and really cheap wine (also TOTALLY worth it).  And just laughing with them.  

And then the frustrated part was spent pounding the sidewalk in my new heels and taking this picture (my feet hurt... but I feel better now.)

It was a time for a reflection - so I played with reflection in my pictures.  This one looks a lot better on my computer than on blogger.  Oh well.

So I'm hoping that things will even out - at least stick to neutral.  But I love hearing from all of you... thank you so much for all the messages and emails.  I love you!